Sunday, June 3, 2012

A fetching little lie.


A very short lesson in Psychology:

  • When a person laughs too much, even on stupid things, the person is sad deep inside
  • When a person sleeps a lot, that person is lonely
  • When a person talks less and if he talks fast, that person is keeping a secret
  • When a person can't cry, that person is weak
  • When a person eats in an abnormal way, that person is in tension
  • When a person cries on little things, that person is soft-hearted
  • When someone asks about me although that someone is busy, he/she really loves you


Saw this on Tumblr few days ago and I'm like, how is this making sense?? So I had to share it here with you guys to see if you all share the exact sentiment haha. If whatever written above are true then I am probably an extremely sad person deep down inside, who is also pretty lonely AND secretive. At times I am weak but most of the time I am in tension, lots of them. You can also say I am soft-hearted if you like. Most importantly, my parents really LOVE me a lot :D


HAHA WTH RIGHT. 


Anyway, I have been plagued by this headache for like 5 days already and I have no idea why. I have been drinking enough water and eating my vitamins (BTW Scott's pastilles Vit C are damn yums haha) so I don't know what's wrong. Maybe it's my screwed body clock, sigh. I get so energetic at night and by daytime I just want to lie on my bed forever till the sun sets then I'm all full of beans again. And the miserable part about everything is half of my friends are stuck with mugging for exams recently so I can't even find people to hang out with. If you're wondering what about the other half, they are always caught up with their own shit lol. 

So whoever who thinks they can hangout with a weird and grumpy friend, don't you hesitate to come invite me for a nice pillow fight or something. IDK MAN, LET'S JUST HANGOUT. I'M SO BORED THESE DAYS. 


Gonna go nurse my headache, adios amigo. 
Oh, and June's going to suck. HAHA kidding uh, have a good one, bye!



Monday, May 28, 2012

Flower boys.


Well hielo! Haven't been feeling too good inside since evening today so I guess I'll blog it off. Since I'm having difficulties falling asleep lately, by saying "sleep it off" doesn't really makes sense to me. 

I don't even know why I should be upset over certain issues today, when I actually have so many things to be thankful and happy about. Like buying new shoes, new makeup, eating good food, spending quality time with the family and friends etc. Sometimes we just tend to magnify one single problem and overlook the great deal of things we could be delighted for don't we? 


So let's talk about stuff that can really put a smile on my face anytime like..... ALL MY OLD LETTERS AND F4 COLLECTIBLES I FOUND WHILE I WAS CLEARING STUFF IN MY ROOM LATELY.


Attempted to(finally) clear all the stuff being kept in the shelves and boxes stored in my room and I found all the goodies that definitely made me laugh and reminisce the entire afternoon. I was annoying every single family member with all my old grandmother stories about the primary school days where I bla bla bla that day hahaha.



Look! Was just saying that I am a letter person especially in the past in the previous post and here you go, some proof! Haha. Read some of the old letters and couldn't help but feel ashamed for how as we grow up, sometimes friendships tend to get compromised for some other things.
Or you can say, everything was way simpler when we were just stinky kids in those deep blue pinafores running around in our dirty school shoes from playing Pepsi-Cola-1-2-3. 


YES, MY CHILDHOOD CAN NEVER BE DEPRIVED OF F4. They made up of like 80% of my primary school days. Everyone knew I love them so much to the point where there was this time when Vanness Wu was featured on the newspaper and the next day I received more than 20+ cutouts of that piece of news with his picture of course from my schoolmates. Like everyone just automatically handed me those stuff LOLOL. 


Kept all the newspaper articles about F4 I could get hold of decently in clear holders haha. Other than turning a lil yellowish, there are pretty much still in mint condition. If only I could sell some of them and earn some moolah from these lol.


One of my favourite photos of Vanness back then haha. Omg I was such a fangirl.


More of magazines + newspapers cutouts. 


My mum's colleague at that time even made a computer generated "wedding photo" of Vanness and me OH MY GOD I CAN'T BREATHE THIS IS TOO FUNNY


Oh, this is when I was starting to take up Chinese on my own. Diligently wrote lyrics of Chinese songs in Pinyin and slowly referring them to the Chinese characters almost every day just so I could be able to understand the chinese news reports about F4 published in newspapers or magazines. If it weren't for F4, I swear I would have known less than 10 Chinese characters up till this day haha. 


My ghostly name back then, Violet. HAHAHA. Random drawings from Cecilia. We were like BFF's back in primary school.


Newspaper cutout of F4 from Ceci.


FOUND MY OLD CHORAL SPEAKING SCRIPT. Could still remember how we were reminded by our teachers in-charge of how confidential these scripts are and how terrible we would lose to other teams if they get hold of our scripts. Look at me and my "TOP SECRET" title written on top HAHAHAHA. 


This is GOLD. Jasmine and her spelling of "whole" as "hold" HAHAHA. This was like in P5 or something. We were so cute back then, what happened to us now?!! Haha. Nah, we're still cute.


Part of the CNY greeting cards I received in primary days. Everytime when CNY is around the corner I would be so excited buying and writing greeting cards for everyone, as well as anticipating on receiving them HAHA.


Fangirls must-have, giant posters of the idols LOL.
Look at Jerry Yan's "Dao Ming Si" pineapple hairdo omg. And girls actually went crazy over him that time.


Hundreds and hundreds of cards...... 


Not forgetting them stickers.


Sorry, am too lazy to rotate the picture and they don't really matter anyway. But I kind of liked them for like a little while back then, just the one on the left to be exact haha. 


Eunice's handwriting when she was 10! HAHAHA. Oh gawd. I feel like going back to the old times and give each of the mini us a good pinch haha. By the way the address is exposed because she's no longer living there so if you're some creepy stalker reading this, you can kill that thought.



And Jasmine's handwriting after 11 freaking years is still the same, bigass round and fat.


Anyone remembers Lime? They have stopped publishing Lime am I right? I used to look forward to every new edition of Lime for the giant posters they have inside.


Ok, only those who have studied in my primary school can relate to this...


The infamous "Red Note" that appeared in the Taiwanese drama "Meteor Garden". It was a gift from my junior. So adorable right, death threat as a gift to the senior hahaha.


Last but not least, a true blue GIANT poster of F4 haha. Used to have them stuck on my wall but my dad kept complaining about how the adhesive were ruining the paint on the wall so I took them off.


These are just a portion of the stuff I found and took pictures of. Threw away a lot of the old letters and cutouts but I actually kept more than disposing them haha. Oh I wish Vanness Wu will read this post someday and actually pays attention to me for like once in his life even just for a minute, for my more than 12 years of fandom.

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Wondering the wonders.

Suddenly had the mood to blog so I'm here. I don't even have a topic to talk about haha. So I just officially graduated with my diploma from Ngee Ann this week. The ceremony was pretty quick but not bad at all. The people that I've thought would appear during my graduation all along didn't arrive, the ones that I clearly know wouldn't be present during my graduation while I still foolishly hope they will obviously weren't there lol, but of course the most important ones, which are my family members definitely made it there. You might be thinking what's wrong with this bitch having so much expectations about her graduation haha. But come on, just imagine yourself on your grad day if you haven't had one or if you're gonna have another one in the future, you'll probably have this setting in your head about the who what why where when how scenario regarding that particular day. Or am I the only one being deluded here haha.


As this chapter of my life closes, it really feels like I am getting so much older overnight. The drive out from the school compound left me feeling so empty yet with a slight delight and anticipation about what's life going to be from then on. Can't wait to see the kind of person I will turn out to be and the plans that will unfold before my very eyes for the upcoming years while at the same time I'm trying to suppress the fear for the unknown. Like how I always tell myself when I was much younger, that I will be a better person as I grow up. But as the years go by it just feels like you are not too different from your younger self and it sucks so bad being at whichever stage you are at the very point of time. Well I can't remember how I actually foresee my 21-year-old self as, but I definitely know the kind of person I aspire to be by the time I hit at least 30?


Have you all ever wanted to write letters to your future self? I have always wanted to do so but I didn't. Or maybe I did but I was too young to remember what I wrote or even where I kept it. Actually to think about it I think I did, 'cos I was a huge fan of writing letters to myself and others back then haha. But somehow I stopped because the last time I remember myself ever writing a proper letter to someone I just ended up looking stupid and the entire effort was wasted or something. Oh gawd, all the juvenile acts haha.


Putting all my post-graduation emotions aside, I just want to take this opportunity to thank all the people who came about during my entire course of poly life no matter what kind of trace did you leave. The noteworthy ones are of course my groupmates that I've worked with before, my coursemates that supported each other throughout this long and tough journey of school, my family members that I look forward to seeing everyday upon returning from Singapore, my high school friends that definitely kept me sane and still doing so now, the lecturers that really put in tremendous amount of effort into teaching and guiding us, my cheerleading family and my Shanghai housemates that were practically my closest kins during that six months.
On top of that not forgetting all the individuals that were somehow involved in my life during that three years of poly life. The experiences I had with them might not be the most significant ones but I believe they all taught me many valuable life lessons that no doubt helped me mature and grow. Thanks to those who came and knock me down, you all taught me how to climb back up stronger and to never be mean A-holes like you people. I don't know man, I have so many people to thank and I really feel the need to express my gratitude to them because this three years have really changed me a lot. How can it not change me right?! I gained so much weight in Shanghai, mother eff.


Before I end of all the ramblings, good luck to all the fellow graduates, may a bright and promising future be awaiting ahead of us, put on your brightest smile and enjoy life as it is!  Bye bye. It's 3 A.M and I need sleep. 

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Pale fire.


HI YALL. Been traveling in to Singapore this two days to help set up my course's graduation showcase and it actually started today. The event which is called "Hybrid" will last throughout the weekend till Sunday so whoever who's interested, feel free to go take a look at our coursework we've done over the span of 3 years! If you realize you're not feeling what we've done after visiting the showcase it's fine, you can grab Macs just opposite the arts centre.


This is the poster, all the info are on it (:


Took a few photos both yesterday and today during the set-up. Excuse me for the bad quality!

The following few shots are some of my coursemates, or ex-coursemates'(boohoohoo) photos that will appear on our "Class of 2012" wall.


Glen Glen. 


Siti and her extra "A" spelled behind.


Me. The guy behind is really lucky. Got displayed at some showcase for no reasons.


Nina!


Mel lookin' good. With the "China One" logo behind hahaha


Brendida Teo!


Fred, who is now busy buying cosmetic products for the girls from our class in Korea right now lol.


Another pretty lady, Nat!


And this, Crystal (:


Bren-ception.


Whoa just realized I'm wearing the same shirt as what I wore in the picture I'm holding in this picture. Without the apron haha.


I miss trolling with her already. Though I just did today.


Yay, on the way to get lunch takeaways for the rest with Brenda. In Zig's LR!


A photo of Glen, our "third friend" and me. 


SPOT ME! Hehe. Love the lighting. 
Daymn, we've really came so far man.




Random pics in the gallery.


With Ziggy!



Okay, end of my quick update. 
Have a wonderful weekend and.. IDK? Drink enough water? lol. Bye x.

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Yet another wave.

It just feels like in this world, it's so hard to get things right. Even just ONE thing. 



Random pictures of me on photo booth. Just one of the nights when falling asleep seems like the most grueling task of all. 






Painted my nails black after not going black for like more than a year. Almost two years I think. Doesn't matter. Not like anyone cares lol.


Friday, May 11, 2012

Pekerja Kilang.

Wow, fantastic baby. Hah oh my, I'm so annoying with the Big Bang songs as intros am I? 

No nonsense, getting straight to the point ok. Met up with the Shanghai housemates last week and it was soooo good. Man I'll do so many things to get me back to that place. Especially our awesome apartment oh dear. Going through a breakup doesn't even sound as bad as moving on from Shanghai. 


Pictures!!!



Forever acting like tourists. Actually I kind of is one am I?


Dinner at Dome. Ordered Orange Chicken Thigh and I love the mashed potato below so much.




Two of my favorite pics from the batch haha they look so cute.


The night continues with us singing KTV. Duhh, that's like an indispensable element of life when we were in Shanghai haha.



Edmund and Mel looking so happy.


Crystal and Brenda!


HAHAHAHAHA


Mutated eye color eherm




Took this photo to see if we really do look alike haha.








So many of B + M photos so I picked a few..


I guess that's me singing Ri Bu Luo hahaha


Then Mel broke into her hysterical laughter again. Why? I have no idea as well.




You know they say laughter is contagious? I guess it's quite true. 
Gawd we had so much fun.


In the cab with Brenda. Liking this pic!




Us outside Butter Factory. And if you're aware of the entry's title, that's how it got derived from. Pekerja Kilang - factory worker. I know I'm so lame. That just came into my mind when I was thinking of a good title for this post..





LOL Brenda trying to get the bear to take a picture with her. Then it just kept on bumping into people  with no directions, hahaha.


Brenda with the Penguin.


I don't know who's extra hand was that.










I likey this photo so much.


Whoa, Mel's face. haha













Don't know what the eff is that guy whispering into Mel's ear HAHAHA.


BRING. ME. BACK. TO. ZAPATA'S.


Sad truth about props like that : Everyone wants to play with it but 5 minutes after they have it they just want to throw it to another person.


Don't have the words to say.


Oh how we miss our room in Shanghai. Despite the bad odor towards the last few weeks of the stay lol gross. 




It was a good night spent with those people. We all just love to relive the moments, whether good or bad don't we?